Friday, April 5, 2019

2019-04-08 - The Vision


  1. A sign, a signifier, a symbol, a sacrament.

    If the Inn points to the Road than we are like planets, ceaselessly in orbit. But Jesus said that He would give us rest. Our souls are restless till they rest in Him. The Cross is not our destination, but our road. It's the Resurrection, the risen, Living Christ that we seek. And the grave is not the Inn, but the garden.

  2. Argh, it looks like I'm going to be a day behind this week... What was that about ideals we can't ever quite attain in this life?

    In all seriousness, though, this is something that frustrates me. I should be immensely grateful for the glimmers of final victory that I perceive while still living the long defeat, and I am grateful in the moment. But as soon as it's over, it just makes the long defeat feel all the more painful, and that's what I can't stop focusing on. I'm such a pessimist, and I don't want to be, but I feel like I'm stuck as one! I'm so stupidly focused on the whole of the mortal forest that I can't appreciate the immortal trees scattered throughout. I don't have lasting peace or joy or hope, and I can't figure out for the life of me how to get them--I think I meet all the requirements of a good Christian life, so what am I doing wrong? I'm sorry for ranting; this is painfully frustrating to me, and I struggle to articulate it.

    Also, I noticed in 2 Samuel 8:18 that it says David's sons were priests. How could they be, since they're not Levites?

    1. I think this will improve once you get out in the real world, Ryan. The adventures of living will lift you out of preoccupations and will lead you to both real suffering and real joy.

      As for David's sons being "priests" - the commentaries I've found suggest that the Jewish word "cohen", which meant "priest" in earlier writings, becomes used as "court official" when the books of Kings and Chronicles were written.

      See the commentary here -

  3. So, last time I went to Confession, I took Fr Schmitz's advice, and the first thing I said was, "God has not been the center of my life."
    The advice I got from the priest, was that he told me to pray to see God in the everyday things, or something along those lines ("Whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all for the glory of God." 1 Cor 10:31) I can't say that I've been particularly successful, but if you look for the little moments of grace in the everyday, whatever it is, whether it's an opportunity for service (I've been getting a lot of those), or a sudden gift, like getting to watch a beautiful sunset (I have not been getting a lot of those), God put that there to work for your good ("And we know that to them that love God, all things work together unto good, to such as, according to his purpose, are called to be saints." Romans 8:28). I think the glimpses of final victory could be something very small and very simple, and they're more abundant than we pessimists think they are. You just have to look for them. I'm a pessimist too, so I know what you mean.

    Hope that is some help.

  4. Thank you both. Your words pulled me back to reality. I praise God for blessing me with fellow travelers who are glimpses of victory in the long defeat.